Things I've been thinking about today. . .

It's really been a long time since I've posted to this blog! I was going to post about a week ago, but then I realized that it should be a good one and I lacked motivation. But my mind is going a mile a minute today, and I thought there are a few things share-worthy. It actually started when I was checking my personal e-mail (at work, bad girl, but I don't feel a bit bad about it seeing as I was here until 7:30 last night) and seeing this quote from Christopher Reeve:
" We can either watch life from the sidelines, or actively participate...Either we let self-doubt and feelings of inadequacy prevent us from realizing our potential, or embrace the fact that when we turn our attention away from ourselves, our potential is limitless."

—Christopher Reeve

I though this was pretty remarkable. I'm in a funk at work, but I know it's all me, and I think I'm going to write this on my desk so every once in a while I come across it and remember it. That's one thought I've had.

I also keep thinking about my CRAZY dream last night. There was a lot of water, and I was wading through it looking for clues hidden in cell phones. Then, suddenly I was in a parking lot and saw Cynthia (who lives in Boston) and she was suddenly an interior designer and knew everyone in the parking lot. As I am thinking about that now, she was in the Coffee Bean parking lot in Mission Valley- that's weird. THEN, suddenly I was watching her from outside somewhere (like a voyeur), through a window, and she was holding a very white baby (which is weird because she's Mexican, but married to a white guy, so maybe that's where it comes from?). I don't know, I'm weird.

Another thought I keep having is about Grandma. I am scared of losing her someday - half her body is numb and she thinks it's a pinched nerve.

I had lunch with my friend Keelia (and Mason) today, and it was fabulous. I was thinking how funny it is that I never really thought about being attached to my friends kids. I remember a long time ago thinking about the days when we would all have kids and they would run around together, but I never thought about becoming attached to the actual kid. It's fun, how I imagine being an aunt would be.

I also keep thinking about how fun our "girls night" was on Saturday. If you were there, you know what I mean. In the past, it could be awkward bringing different friends together, but I think we may be getting past that stage in life! Or perhaps it was just the entertainment. . . .

Our Receptionist at work has a daughter my age and she's just finding the man she wants to marry(the daughter), and our Receptionist is so happy about it (because she wants grandkids). She was telling me about it today (I have worked, I swear) and she said to me that the way I talk about Andrew she can tell I really love him. That struck me, and I'm happy that others can see it. It made me feel very lucky to have Andrew as my husband.

Now my nagging thought is that I should get back to work. One other though about work- I always thought that I want the job where I can work independently and do my own thing, but I didn't know how responsible I would feel for all the decisions I would make. Like I said, I'm in a job funk. That's all she wrote!